All of this for nothing

(Jeannie Zandi)

Was I always so luscious? 
Did I gleam and ripple,
without adornment,
like the sparkling sea?
Every cell in my body is dancing! 
Shining from the inside with 
a light that comes from nowhere.

Pinned to the moment

like a butterfly, no longer anywhere

else to go.  Candle flickering inside

my heart, breath of my child 

breathing me.  Heart

thickly laden with invisible fruit, joy

beaming from my eyes.

Something broke inside, something laid down,

exhausted from the struggle, and

died.  Whatever I gave

myself to then has flowered

inside and

taken over, turning

my home into night sky.

I cannot tell

you, where I have gone,

where I am going.  As the darkness

took me, the road disappeared

behind, and ahead,

nothing.

Only walking through now and always

now.  All of this

for nothing!  With the entire universe

lovemaking

inside me, I have stopped

asking anyone

for anything.

 

Bron:
Jeannie Zandi